Yes, so it finally happened.  This wednesday was my “official” last day at my employment.  Funny how that lack of direct deposit money in your account puts one into survival mode.  Somehow my Grande Signature hot chocolate with two extra shots from my favorite coffee company doesn’t seem THAT important these days.  I’ve had a couple interviews, a couple look promising…but I’m reminded on a second by second basis…I really am doing this to survive.

I’m scared, plain and simple. I know, split me open and where would fear reside in my physically? Sure, I know conceptually the fear is a manifestation of misplaced focus. But I have noticed one thing about this particular time without a job.  I can say that I’m scared, but I am completely and totally content with how its all going to turn out. In the past 6 months or so I’ve learned a lot.  And I know that everything is working JUST AS IT SHOULD.  If I make up anything about my situation…its my doing. So, can you be scared and be enlightened at the same time?  Sure…I just have to realize I’m the one making myself afraid. (Go figure…)

I appreciate all your support and kind words.  Keep sending me your light and love…and I will keep going forward with that which I love.  You are all blessings to me!

Bright Blessings!
~Matthew